Anti Anti Social

That is what i was today. so i guess i was social but i don't like saying that so we will stick with anti anti social. Anyhow so i've been having some issues with amana as of late because i was kind of a jerk to one of her friends a few days ago so i let her stomp around the house for a few days but today i spoke with a dear friend of mine back home and she kinda knocked some sense into me so i went and apoligized to amanda and explained to her how i was feeling. I often feel that when i am around her group of people especially the guys they refuse to speak to me it is frustrating becasue the least they could do is say hi but they don't even do that. So i haven't been very pleasant to these people i figure why put up a front right? well this bothered amanda a lot and that is understandable. so this evening before dinner we hashed it out and at dinner i was nice to those people that i don't particularly feel good about. Honestly it was one of the harder things i have ever done just because i had to go out on a limb one of my greatest fears is rejection and that was a big thing i had to confront this evening. i went and introduced myself to these people who had previously treated me like a nothing and it felt good. In fact it made me happy, it was nerve racking and i had to talk myself into it but i did it and i feel better. So there ya go my accomplishment for the week oh yeah here are some "modeling" pictures me and jacob took today he is a dork but look at his awesome pants!! ah yes and icsicles.