Still my heart and hold my tongue
I feel my time
My time has come
Let me in
Unlock the door
I never felt this way before

And the wheels just keep on turning
The drummer begins to drum
I don’t know which way I’m going
I don’t know which way I’ve come

Hold my head inside your hands
I need someone who understands
I need someone, someone who hears
For you I’ve waited all these years
For you I’d wait till kingdom come
Until my day, my day is done
And say you'll come and set me free
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me

In your tears and in your blood
In your fire and in your flood
I hear you laugh, I heard you sing
I wouldn’t change a single thing
And the wheels just keep on turning
The drummers begin to drum
I don’t know which way I’m going
I don’t know what I’ve become

For you I’d wait till kingdom come
Until my days, my days are done
And say you'll come and set me free
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me

fighting sleep so i can blog blog blog

This week has been wonderful we went to my Aunt's for thanksgiving and then today me and diana and the parents went to temple square as per tradition, it was pretty sad with just the four of us but still fun. I am glad that diana and i have been able to hang out this week i miss her when i am not here. I am only slightly dreading school next week i feel like that aspect of my life is the most out of control but i feel like i got a lot done this weekend so hopefully that will ease the stress. The parents are letting me take a car back to school till christmas so that will be nice to have. I am ready to be back with my friends i think. I haven't really done a whole lot of being with people this week i don't know what the deal is but it has been a good refresher. tomorrow will be good i am going to do homework all day then at night hang out with chris---we made plans but i don't know if they will actually pan out or not. Well here are some pictures from thursday enjoy!




Bliss i tell you absolute bliss, there is no comfort like being in the arms of my mother.

cop out blog#2

Four jobs I have had in my life:
1. Newspaper carrier
2. chocalatier (how do you spell that)
3. assistant at a nursing home
4. Temp


> Four movies you would watch over and over again:
1. Pride and Prejudice (6 hour version)
2. Better of Dead
3. Moulin Rouge
4. Bill and Ted's excellent adventure

> Four places you have lived:
1. Sandy, Utah
2. Rexburg,Idaho
3. ?
4. ?

> T.V. shows that I watch:
1. The Office
2. Hogan Knows Best
3. America's Most Smartest Model
4. Arrested Development

> Four Places I Want to Go:
1. England
2. Ireland
3. Maine
3. Switzerland
>
> People who e-mail you (regularly):
1. Siblings
2. Parents
3. David
4. thats about it
>
> Four of my favorite foods:
1. Chocolate in general
2. Dad's Pancakes
3. Reed's Dairy chocolate milk
4. spaghetti carbonara
>
>
> Four places I wish I was/ or need to be right now:
1. Asleep
2. doing homework
3. in rexburg with friends
4. with friends here
>
> Four friends I think will respond:
1. I think this is a dumb question
2.
3.
4.
>
> Things you are looking forward to this year:
1. Christmas break
2. seeing James and Karen at Christmas
3. being finished with this semester

Ben Lee

In the rain
I'm walking slowly
there's a light
in your apartmant
I don't know why
I ache for you

and it's alright if you're undecided or,
if you're scared that you might like it or
if it's true, I ache for you

there's no rhyme and there's no reason
you're the secret in the back of my skull
there's no logic, so please believe me
our love's confusing, but it never gets dull

it's getting late
anticipation
and if we talk
communication
and then you'll know
I ache for you

and yes sometimes it's just desire
another problem there you really don't want
but anyway, I ache for you.

there's no rhyme and there's no reason
I know the secret in the back of my skull
there's no logic, so please believe me
our love's confusing, but it never gets, it never gets dull

I ache for you.

I ache for you.

and I'm tired, of so much wanting
and what if, don't even think it
but why not.

there's no rhyme and there's no reason
put a secret in the back of my skull (back of my skull)
there's no logic, so please believe me
our love's confusing, but it never gets dull (it never gets dull)

there's no rhyme and there's no reason
you're the secret in the back of my skull (back of my skull)
there's no logic, so please believe me
our love's confusing, but it never gets dull (never gets dull)
but it never gets dull (never gets dull)
never gets dull
I ache for you

i am home

and here are some pictures:

Denny's run cass me daniel tyleen

BAHA!

Today has been good but stressful, i had to write a paper and then go talk to my professor about it. It was nerve racking but he gave me a B so that was good. After that i went to class and then came home and started cooking dinner then Matt got here (woohoo!!!) and we all ate and now we are chilling in the library "doing homework" well everyone else really is except me. Anyhow I am going to take this opportunity to shout out to Nick (hey nick!) who told me at dinner time that i started blogging before he knew what a blog was....that made me laugh. I am out.

Thoughts While on the Elliptical:

Just because my friends aren't happy doesn't mean that i can't be.

mreh

I got a letter from my brother today it was wonderful! he seems to be doing well, but also a little stressed. Tonight has been good we ate dinner and watched the office and i think i am going to go to the gym here in a little but and then i will watch cass, tyleen and janiece's basketball game at 10. I am glad this week picked up and that tomorrow is friday even though i will just be doing homework this weekend and nothing fun. Matt gets here in about two days i am so very excited to see him again it will be very nice. I am also excited for thanksgiving it will be good to be at home with the fam for a while, and hopefully i will be able to figure things out while i am there and make some sort of decision. Well i think that is all i have to say. I miss andrew. School is hard. Friends are the best.

deedle dee

check out my new link to Nick's (of dinner group fame) blog i am drowning in a sea of homeworky badness......

More than Semi-Awkward Library post

i really do despise blogging in the library but alas....no internet at the apartment for the time being. Things are going ok today, it has been a little hairy but i feel better than i did this morning.
Last night dad and mom called me and the first thing dad asked me was if i had decided if i was going on mission or not. It freaked me out. He told me that the sooner i decided the easier it would be. So i told him i would decide by the end of the year, but it put me all out of sorts i had trouble sleeping last night and a hard time focusing this morning then i talked to tyleen and i realized that if i don't want to decide right now i don't have to, although my parents are an integral part of my life it is nonetheless MY life and if i feel like i need more time to figure things out then i am going to take it. It made me feel a whole lot better about everything.

next week Matt gets here and i am so excited! Except it will be a lot harder to study when he is around i think. I am sad that tyleen is leaving next semester she has been such a good friend to me the past few months i don't know what i am going to do without her.

I register for next semester's classes this week, i am taking this stupid fine arts class with daniel we have to go to a bunch of concerts and crap on campus, i am glad he is taking it with me, i am also going to try and get into the Old Testament class that he is taking that would be fun as well. Alright i must go study or something.

I feel like this week, actually this whole semester has absolutely flown! I am anticipating November to bring great things, matt gets back in rexburg in about 12 days and in 16 it will be thanksgiving break.

My little brother left on his mission yesterday, i did better than i thought i would, i only cried once. I wrote him a letter already and sent it off, i hope he is doing well, I miss him already.
Right now i am in the midst of writing a paper about Dover Beach i think it is probably one of the best things i have ever written, i absolutely adore that poem.

We got our midterms and i am actually feeling pretty good about school, i need to do some catch up work but i feel like good grades are within reach.
Things in rexburg have been wonderful i am reminded daily how blessed and lucky i am to be surrounded by such great people that care about me and love me. Tyleen and Janiece are going out of town this weekend so i am hoping to get a lot of homework done and cass and i have plans to hike up R mountain weather permitting. We started a dinner group...i don't know if i have mentioned that yet, it consists of me, Cass, Tyleen, Janiece, Daniel, and two of his roommates Nick and Kallen. It is so nice at the end of the day to have a good meal and good company to enjoy it with. I feel like it has helped me regain some sort of order in my life. Well i best get cracking at that paper