huh

i hung out with whit and charles last night we went to a bowling alley and saw about twenty people from our high school it was not a pleasant experience. It wouldn't have been bad but it was lal the people i don't particularly like it was ok they ignored me i ignored them all except a boy named matt. he has always been nice to me even though i wasn't exactly high on the the "social ladder" that is high school fro that i appreciate him he is a good kid.

I am not going to lie i was a shameless flirt last night i flirted with charles and i flirted with his friend i think i have come to the conclusion that the reason i keep hanging out with him is that i like the attention. After four months it is nice to have someone flirt with me without the presence of attractive roommates it is nice to catch someone looking at me, it is nice to know someone thinks that i am pretty.

marriage

my aunt got married today it was lovely. i will post pictures when i get them on my computer it was nice to see everyone i love that side of the family they are just great. my dear parents are going out of town again to visit my grandma i guess she isn't doing to well which makes me sad. my dearest david left for taiwan yesterday the funny part is he doesn't get there until like 9:30 tonight crazy. whitney is doing pretty well though we went to a movie last night and on saturday we will be visiting the zoo which will be fun. For the first time since i came home i missed idaho today. I do i miss the cold and cassidy and alli and dakota and jacob. I miss it but i am glad i still have another week. new years kind of weird hopefully it will be fun ok i am out expect more pictures soon.

woot

yeah the internet works again which means that i can put pics of christmas on here which is exciting so christmas is pretty much a big deal in my home and we have certain traditions that are a bit odd that we keep. so here they are i will start with

CHRISTMAS EVE:

we always have breakfast for dinner pancakes specifically

we watch a muppet christmas carol
we walk down to the park by my home and jump off of the sign (weird i know)


do you like how andrew doesn't have pants on ?
a good time was had by all

CHRISTMAS DAY:
we woke up at 7 we always do unwrap presents dad doles them out then we went to church at 11 it was very nice then we just chilled played games chatted with the fam and all that it was so much fun.

i had a sleep over with some girls that i am pretty close with it was much fun
all i have to say is tyra banks is a retard

today sucks

i am not going to lie today sucks my internet refuses to work so i can't write my freaking amazing blog with pictures about the last three days charles isn't speaking to me i hate everything i hate that i even toy with the idea of kissing him i need to find somone new.

teehee

I hung out with Charles last night. and it wasn't awkward in fact we had a really good conversation we sat in my drive way and talked for about 3 hours. we talked about our relationship what he did to me why he did it how i felt how he has felt all that sort of stuff. and music and politics and how he feels about israel and what he wants to do with life and what i want to do with life people we are interested in just everything it was great i miss his friendship if there is one thing about charles it is that he is a good conversationalist. James and mom were not to happy about this but i don't think they understand about closure i needed that so badly i needed to talk things out with him i needed to see him and realize that i don't love him anymore and i needed him to tell me that he doesn't love me but still cares. just great closure that is all.

And now presenting MY DAY O FUNNNESS

woke up at 11:30 ate pizza Tom the spirit of our family coerced me into tying ribbons on little jars of jam at 12 me james and andrew went downtown to sam weller's this awesome used book store in salt lake it was pimp i got a book of post cards from india or something. it is heinously warm outside so walking was most pleasant.
And the best part of it all was when the Hobo laughed at andrew.

in other news i saw The Chronicles of Narnia last night it was amazing please check out that link it is hilarious. I HAVE HAD A WONDERFUL DAY
and i am pretty excited about that
Charles and dearest hannah came over just now and he gave me a bunch of music like Jack's Mannequin and some skits from The Lonely Island Boys which were very humorous.
oh yes i feel fantastic

and christmas is in two days
deedle dee deedle doo



this is the fam i realize it is blurry but there ya go
fromleft to right
joe, Elizabeth, Andrew in the red sweater, me (Catherine) in black, Diana in red, James in blue and pops and mom and our beautiful christmas tree WOOHOOO
this is a shout out to james because he said catherine will you give me a shout out in your blog and i said yes so ther ya go it is time to go grocery shopping.

i am running out of titles for posts

i have used all of them up i keep looking around forrandomones but they are dumb there ya go. so i am still sick and it is getting worse again. my head has been killing me for awhile now my face hurts stupid sinuses i have been going to bed really early though so that is good but it is frustrating cause i want to play and be exciting and not be a stupid stick-in-the-mud-wet-blanket-no-fun-poopy-face. yeah you heard me. oprah is stupid she makes me mad/want to kick her. Ricky came over today that was fun he is nice and i can tell he tries not to swear around me which i appreciate. all these stupid boys on myspace are talking to me i want them to go away when did i become interesting to people. i am tired. i don't want to hang out tonight i have to go to the doctor i hate the doctor. BLEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ok nap time now.
ps my brother thinks ricky is creepy my brother is a nerd just kidding jamesie i hope you get your paper done and i will go to the doctor

RACKO!

Ah home is lovely i tell you lovely. last night i hung out with whit an david as well as one peter from my high school who is quite good friends with charles and i am pretty sure he was hanging out with charles before he came to whit's and then picked charles up again when he left awkward. meh. today has been nice i love my family for sure. they are wondeful and i am so glad i am here they are all so supportive and great. tonight i got to meet grey diana's friend which was nice he is a good kid i alsomeet a boy named ricky that is diana's friend he is cute and nice and i hope i see him again. Aunt Susie came to dinner she is getting married on the 30th i am happy for her but i will miss her on christmas and i won't like sharing her with her new children but there ya go. Church was good i went with dear kayla to primary it was fun there is a little boy named tanner who always gives me hugs i love him he is so cute. I am sitting here watching my brother and his girlfriend they are so cute i hope they get married i can see how happy she makes him. alrighty i should probably sleep

Home

i am home i got here about 2:30 talked with momand dia for a bit then went to david's and watched him clean cried a little made david feel uncomfortable then i went home and chatted with the little brother then i went with mom to take little brother to meet cousins for boys night out after hat i came home and just chilled, ate dinner with just the parents and i amcurrently waiting for the lovely whitters to pick me up i can't wait to see her ahh it is so fling flanging wonderful to be home!!!
oh yeah i got my phone from dakota this morning he came out of his room in his pj's he looked so cute i am not going to lie.

Already

i am all packed except my computer and i have been officially checked out I am very excited to leave but i will sincerly miss a few people who will not be coming back next semester. jacob came and said good bye at about 11 we spent most of the day together it was nice i almost started to cry when he left even though i will see him in a month i will miss him. i wish i could better express to him how much he means to me i suppose i will have to write a truly excellent note to go along with his christmas present. Tonight i have been listening to cat stevens i really enjoy it probably my favorite is Sad Lisa good stuff. I am wondering about blog edicate I want to post links to blogs i frequently read but i am not sure if this is ok. do i need to ask? meehhh 9 in the mornig is so far away right now oddly enough grr i wish we couldhave left tonight oh well. i am going to breakfast tomorrow at like 7 it should be great i will most definitely be sleeping in the car. Dakota has my phone i don't know what to do his phone is brokenso i can't call him i am pretty sure the parents will destroy my soul if i go home with out it bleg I am thinking of including a cd in with jacob's present just a mix hmmm. i have to get cass' home address before i leave i can't forget. she is going to be in salt lake for three hours on saturday i wish i lived closer to the airport then i would go see her. ahh home wonderful. i am hungry but alas no money mmk maybe i will attempt to sleep now.

but wait holy freaking crap i found the coolest website ever check it out
cool music site

Inept

pretty sure i am inept when it comes to computers/the internet or what have you so when i figured out how to make links yesterday i was pretty excited (my lovely sis taught me how) so in honor of this occasion as well as in celebration of me finishing my last test (yiiipeeeeeeeeeeee) i give you The Sibling Blog I am Smart

heres hoping it works i am off to clean.

huh

So exciting day today stood in line to take a test at the testing center for a hour and a half only to sit down to take the test and figuratively as well as literally choke. So i was kind of freaking out as it was because of the stupid massive line and then it was my first time in the new testing center so i was all anxious and crap so i sat down and i get this tickle in my throat so i start coughing and i was freaking out even more because all the people and i bet i was bugging them i felt sk bad they were all trying to take their tests and i couldn't stop coughing and i tried to supress it and i couldn't and the more i tried the more it tickled and i ended up in tears it tickled so much and hurt and i was so frustrated so i just filled in all the c's on the test and turned it in i ended up getting a 28% on it but it was only my child development test and he drops the lowest test score so i think everything will be ok but not a great experience. and then dakota came over and we attempted to study he played the guitar it was amazing i wish i had a tape recorder or something made me cry lots of crying today. Luckily he didn't see me he is an amazing boy. So we were studying and what not and he was acting all grumpy and i told him he could leave if he wanted to and all that and he was like no grumble grumble and he asked me a question from the text and i was like are you sure i wont be offended if you want to leave and he kinda yelled just answer the question dangit and i kinda started to cry again i knew he was kidding and everything i was just so tired and stressed and ready to go home so he said lets take a break so we did and we talked a bit he is a sweetie sometimes i think i could totally want to be with him i don't know days like today when he is so nice and around so much even the only reason for it is because he is avoiding that other girl i don't know he is cute but nothing will ever happen i know that for a fact here is the reason why: we were speaking about that girl that he is semi chasing after/running away from and when describing her he said she is awesome, different from the other girls up here, like you but different.

different i am sure in that she is attractive.

my dear cassidy is not feeling well i am actually pretty worried about her she thinks she has mono i am worried i want her to be ok i love that one i really do i don't know what to do to help her it is awful when she is sick cause she gets so sad when she can't go out and play mmk i am going to go stare at my ceiling for a few hours bleh i wish i could sleep ok off i go.

Dakota

I think Dakota is possibly the most interesting person I have met up here and probably the one who i most respect. This evening he came over to study for biology for the first time Dakota talked to me about a girl. dakota is confusing, he wants action or does he? I don't know he makes it seem that he wouldn't mind a relationship with this girl despite the situation. Odd boy anyhow Whats up with the guys talking to me about girls as of late? i just don't know. this post is pointless everything i have said for the past few days has been complaining i do realize that. i probably won't post half as much when i get home because the parents turn the internet off at 11:30 but who knows i leave friday i can't wait to take my bio test it will be a fierce one Professor Eastman called me at home today it was weird i like her she is nice i wish i could be her friend instead of her student but i am not sure if that is allowed. i have read a lot of blogs and to tell you the truth none of them are like mine they are interesting and funny and not stupid and whiny it makes me want to change but at the same time i don't because this is my outlet when i am pissed or sad or happy this is where i come it is like my substitute whitney and charles it makes me want to cry i wish i had a closer a friend up here so i didn't have to live my life through the friggin internet

I am excited to go home to people who actually know me. On the 27th i will be seeing charles for the first time in months i will be expecting good mojo thrown my way by the the lovely people of blogger.com

That made me think about dear david i am going to miss him a lot even though we aren't as close anymore i still feel i don't know attached to him? i am not sure what it is but i care about that boy an awful lot i worry about him going to a foreign coutry not know ing the language all that jazz he is a big boy i am sure he will be all right i just can't help but worry what if he gets mugged or something and he can't clal home what if he gets sick and no one is there to take care of him, it makes me think of when he got his wisdom teeth out he was so funny that day so sleepy and the hook "you can't get past the hook" i will miss him much and i ache for my dear whitney and what she is up against in the next few months i wish i could be there with her " a growing experience" i guess it will be that was my mantra the first weeks of college and one of the last things my mom said to me before she left grr stupid blog i haven't cried in what seems like ages at least i will sleep well tonight.

I can't wait to see my family again. my siblings are truly the greatest people on earth, spend ten minutes with us and i can guarentee that they will have you laughing you couldn't find people nicer, smarter and as kind as in my family i am so glad that we are close and that i can talk to them about crap they sometimes wouldn't care to hear and that i can count on them for support and love even in the middle of finals week ahh i miss my home so badly grr three more days and i am there.
feels good to unload and i am sufficiently ready for bed. so good night

PS i wish i had a picture of my whole family but alas i don't i suppose i will fix that when i go home
oh yes and just so everyone knows what i was really going to write about tonight was how i want to live in maine and how i think jews are hot, silly dakota messed everything up!

No Hidden Fees

I am feeling much better today to bad half he apartment hates me right now. So i get up at around 11:30 and we decide to go to lunch as roommates so me alli tiffany and karilynn are sitting in the living room and alli was like are you waiting for cassidy? and i was like yeah is that a problem? and she like freaked out at me and was like why are you being so defensive and i said i didn't mean to be defensive and she was like why do you hat eme and why are you mad at me and all this crap and i am like i am not mad at you so i asked her where my necklace was cause she always takes it and doesn't return it and she told me so i went to go put ot on and when i got back out into the living room they were all gone. i assume they went to lunch i waited for cass to finish getting ready and we went to lunch then ran some errands when i got back they were all in their rooms and wouldn't talk to me i don't know if i care well i do but its just so stupid and petty it makes me angry that alli assumes she knows what i am feeling i wasn't mad at her until they all ditched me and cass whatever i don't care.


ok so alli just walked in she is isttingon the other couch STARING at me if you want to say something say it KGBKASJGDHSKUHG

sleeps not coming easy to me now

i have been listening to something corporate a lot lately and quite frankly i have enjoyed it. still trying to get rid of this cold but i am better tonight then i have been if it weren't for this persistent cough and a couple of roommates i would be asleep ah well so it goes alright i am off

Awake

i am awake it is 6:30 why am i awake when i don't have class till 8 and i went to bed around two. stupid coldgrr iam so upset i just want to sleep but i can't everytime i lay down i cough everytime i sit up i cough everytime i breathe i cough anyone have any suggestions????

Hmmm

So i was thinking about a comment that was made on the previous post by phil (check out his blog it is really good) I suppose that tomy family and my friends would say that i am outgoing but in high school i think that i definitely was known for being on the quieter side i think that i have outgrown it somewhat being in college and all but i still can't talk to boys and i don't generally speak in class because professors scare me but meh.

So i was thinking about writing today and i realized that i was censoring myself because of the people i know who read this but i decided i am going to continue writing in this like it is a secret blog and hopefully the people i love who read this won't think too less of me

ok this is mean i am warning you

so i was sitting there playing snood on my computer i love snood i really do so tiffany was there watching me and she was like can i play? so I have my computer i am in the middle of a game what do i say? i can't say no that is ridiculous but i did not want to say yes i wanted to play snood dangit selfish i know it just bothers me when i am in the middle of doing something and she asks for my computer isn't it obvious that i am using it ? GRR even if it is doing something insignificant like checking blogs still there are three other computers in this apartment WITH NO ONE ON THEM logic is great. ok so that is my rant for now

Matt Ho is here i think he hates me he just seems annoyed like i am some crappy music underling and alli is some all-knowing music goddess just because she listens to incubus and never listens to any pop who gives a friggin crap if i have kelly clarkson on my ipod deal with it maybe i do like dashboard ya wanna go ? grr stupid musical elitists i should just go to bed it is proabbaly just cause i feel like crap and ryan didn't come and that is dissappointing and i am pretty sure he wants alli to so i should probably not get my hopes up grrr maybe i should just climb into a box and never leave so as to prevent any male from having to experience me having a crush on them i might as well just for go talking to boys and introduce them to alli so she can seduce them with her crazy eye make up and stupid holy jeans sorry i am done




jacob and his friend miles came over tonight i plucked their eyebrows in other news jacob kissed his first girl a couple of weeks ago she is going to beauty school and currently FAILING IT yes failing beauty school kudos to you jacob miles and me had "girl talk" he wants to hold this girls hand blah blah blah tiffany gave him awful advice but his eyebrows look good.

blegh

I am not going to lie last night was awesome but i feel worse today then i did yesterday i probably shouldn't have gone to the show buti didn't want to dissappoint alli further it was so much fun love you long time released their CD so there were a ton of people there kara took us again along with Matt Ho and a new boy named ryan. ryan is cute and nice and funny he lives in my home town How convenient we will be hanging out over christmas break i am hoping. i saw a young man that i have seen before at shows a very attractive young man i think i have actually blogged about him before i should have talked to himlast night i felt like i looked pretty but i wasn't too confident because my voice sounds like a man it was an awesome show nontheless the first band sucked but then belafaunte played and they were good. afterwards we went to craigos and sat and talked adamshowed up oddly enough he is always weird when we hang out in groups. we didn't have a ride over to craigos after the show it is about a mile away and it was about 3 degrees last night so alli coerced a stranger to take us over there his name was mark he came in with us and sat and ate pizza he was a very nice guy. i am exhausted i couldn't get to sleep til about two and i woke up at six because my darncold matt ho and ryan said they would come and visit us tonight i am excited for that matt is hilarious and i found out extremely ticklish. I have been drinking apple cider like it is going ou of style in an attempt to assuage my cold it has 100% vitamin c and the warmth feels good on my throat thank you mommy

i found out my dear friend david is leaving out of the country sooner than i had anticipated it makes me sad i will miss that crazy asian quite a bit he is a good one.

The Sickness

so it it official i have a cold a bad one, head feels like its going to explode cough so hard my body shakes nose plugged back/shoulders/neck sore from coughing voice one octave lower etc. i am not to happy about this cold five days before my first final but that is a lie i took my first final today i got an 86% on it i am quite content with this score all things considering. man i feel like crap i wish i culd sleep i tried to at about quarter to 11 and had no luck so i took a bath and tried again and no luck so here i am feeling like crap exhausted but unable to sleep i suppose i could do something productive like study but what fin would that be besides i think my head would explode. There sure are a lot of nice looking men on this campus maybe i am going crazy i saw sam today as i headed to the library it threw me off and i think he was a little weirded out too. it is odd because up until this point i haven't really been attracted to anyone here except jacob and that was fleeting well i guess there is cafeteria boy too but yeah all the sudden attractive men are popping up out of nowhere ok i am going to go take some freaking nyquil i sure hope it works

ps we passed clean checks thank heavens

Clean

Some cruel person here invented "white glove clean checks" i will find this person and murder them. i have been cleaning since nine just my room and i am not finished yet tomorrow i will have to wash the walls vaccum thoroughly make sure ther e is not a speck of dust anywhere including behind the bed underneath drawers etc. not to mention the stuff i have to do in the general apartment area of our house GRRRR i am tired i want to sleep but i have to put all the clothes back into my drawers curse this place.

on the bright side i did decently on my health test and tomorrow is friday that means the next day is saturday and that means i get to go hear some bands play YIPPEEEE i am happy. mmk i am off to clean some more.

Lights Out

So last night at about quarter to one the power shut off which normally isn't a problem but it the real feel at the time was -25 degrees thats cold i promise. so alli was freaking out and the RA's came around to do bed checks and of course amanda isn't home so i tell the RA that she is aat kristen's which is just across the courtyard from us (i actually did think she was there i promise) about 5 minutes later she calls my phone and is like i am not in the dorm and i told her what i told the RA and she said apperntly they are at kristen's right now i honestly wanted to just laugh because she is screwed i am sure she will get on probation iam positive of it i feel bad but then again that is what you get for breaking the rules right? so i was kkind of worried that we would be cold if the power stayed off all night so i had everyone sleep in the living room the lights came on at about 2 so we weren't too cold which was good so that is my excitement i am sure i will post again this evening

Deedle Doo

so pretty sure today has been great maybe because my team CONQUERED ALL in volleyball maybe because i got to cuddle and it might be because i went to another democrat meeting wih the lovely Jacob he is a nice boy. Matt E came over this evening to help me study fo health i think it was prety effectual and i am actually feeling confident about tomorrow but i am NOT excited about friday which is our "white glove check" the RA's had a meeting with all of us tonight and said it would probably take us up to six hours to complete everything GRR but oh well i suppose. man i am hungry. i got o talk to my little bro last night for like two hours it was great that kid is amazing i tell you AMAZING he was telling me the drama that is going on in high school and it made me laugh so hard!! i love that one indeed i do. OHYES i found a ride to utah for next friday my last final is from 7-9 friday morning so we are leaving at 11 which means i will be HOME BY 3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM SO FLING FLANGING EXCITED I COULD EXPLODE INTO A MILLION BITS. oki best go read the great gatsby becaue book club i stomorrow and pretty sure i haven't finished yet. mmk i am off

I am Tired

why you may ask would i be tired well it is probably because my ridiculous roommate and her ridiculous friend SAT and TALKED LOUDLY while i tried to sleep last night i finally got fed up and went and slept on the nice hard cold floor in the living room around six i woke up and moved to my bed. this and many other things contribute to my sudden excitement to return home for christmas other than that i had a pretty good day i feel good this evening like i could onquer the world!!!!! just kidding but i do feel pretty good at this moment i would like: Some chocolate milk
a hamburger
whitters
sister
a nap
that is all just a few things not much but the likely hood of recieving any of them is very slim except maybe thenap which will come in 2 to3 hours and last 7 isshhhhh mmk i am off to do the math project of death

Another Day

i wrote this earlier this afternoon i have things to add though so here goes

Here I am in great harvest I just went to Zion’s bank to deposit money and I was freezing so I got a cookie and a slice of bread I am pretty happy about that but alas I am not getting an internet connection today has been pretty good volleyball was so much fun! My team was really nice this time and I played a lot better than I have been I play so much better when people don’t care about winning and don’t get on me for messing up everyone was just having fun and we ended up winning 3 of the five games we played so that was good I have a test in child development this evening I am not too excited about that but oh well eh? It is pretty bitter outside but my jacket has been working quite well so I talked to my sis just now and it turns out Charles and her roommate did break up I guess he cried. I laughed when I heard that I am a jerk OH WELL hahahhahahhah just kidding I do feel bad he is a really sensitive kid and I almost feel like calling him to see if he is ok….. almost I am feeling pretty good about this situation these days I am a lot happier right now then I have been in a long time maybe it is because Christmas is getting to me I dunno but I am pretty dang happy.


All day I have found myself looking at guys more than usual it has been weird I have never been so aware of all of them odd anyhow, I am thinking I need to limit my blog intake it is getting out of hand I am feeling a little overloaded in that department meh any how I am out I will probably write more this evening.

My sister said would ask my mom if she could come and pick me up that would be so much fun, better then riding down with strangers or even with mike he is nice enough guy just….different. I am excited to get to salt lake it really is a nice place and I miss my mountains
I should probably be getting home sigh



i just remembered COOKIE it is in my back pack maybe i will eat it

dissapointing this cookie is.
i am happy i got to talk to my sis today i miss that one a lot i do and i finally got to see her cutest ever new hair cut very nice nana very nice indeed i should go to sleep ack gotta call matt

matt was asleep i woke him up i feel bad
why is matt going to bed at 11? actually that is probably a good idea matt has his head on straight for sure. lost my train of thought completely so i will be preparing for the bed now maybe not
I am not sure what i am looking for do i want a significant other? i just don't know "i try to keep awake,i can feel this narcolepsy slide into another nightmare" that third eye blind concert was freaking amazing thanks nana a million times. I wrote dear preston a letter this evening. tiffany asked me what my favorite gift is that i have recieved from a boy, last year for christmas preston gave me glue for the rear view window on my car and a gift certificate to a restraunt, we never went but that is probably my favorite. charles never really gave me anything that hit me hard except maybe the death cab dvd but nothing really personal like that stupid tube of glue. odd how things work out. sometimes i wish i were an artist i have never really felt like i could express myself very well with words and i want to make something i don't know bleh


i miss whitters
saxaphones are truly great though scott told me he was disappointed in me today it broke my heart i need to be a better person it shouldn't be this hard. pinback is amazing mmmmm ok time to clean up the old ipod i am out sorry this blog has been kind of extremely disjointed oh well its for me not for you so deal with it

Dream

last night i had an odd dream. This does not come as a suprise to me considering my dreams of this week have consisted of a crazy asian girl trying to eat my insides as well as my dad forcing me to ride a bycicle to st. louis while the rest of the family drove. So this dream was relatively watered down. I was sleeping in the Colwell's home but it was actually the Buchanan's old house with some slight alterations, Jil came in and woke me up and in a hurrued voice told me i was going to miss my flight back to rexburg. as i ran around the house trying to gather my things as quickly as possible i noticed a number of men in work clothes around the house fixing things. As i continued to gather my things i returned to the room where i was sleeping a young man was in there, nothing was said but i was under the impression that this young man was the author of one of the many blogs that i frequently read. We began to talk and i was quite taken with him and he with me, i decided to give him my number and as i searched for a paper and pen he tapped me on the shoulder and handed me both i asked him how he knew what i was looking for and answered that he had had the same idea. In my dream i remember feeling quite odd about this exchange because i have probably given my number to two people in my entire life one of them being jacob. as soon as numbers were exchanged we found ourselves outside of my home in sandy utah my family wasn't with us but i knew they were in the house specifically in the basement as we joked around i expressed some desire to go inside and be with my family and he agreed at that i woke up. i suppose it isn't too odd but i woke up feeling weird and a little smitten with this young man who i dreamt about.

so there you have it bleg. I have not felt well today but i did go to all of church and i am very glad that i did the lessons really hit me today i am not sure why but i am glad that i got to hear what i did. sometimes i feel like everything is so right and ijust want to stay forever maybe that is why i hate change because i have to adjust and reasses i would love to stay but i can't atleast i know that much.

if you haven't heard the soundtrack to Garden State do it, it is amazing.


one last thing i bet there are a ton of abandoned blogs on blogger it makes me sad that is all

ok this is the last thing i promise actually i don't anyhow yesterday i walked into the galley and heard some christmas music now i don't paarticularly like christmas music besides hymns ( played on the pianoand sung by a congregation that is ) and manheim steamroller good stuff anyway that is not my point this christmas music reminded me of my daddy it was smooth jazz style with saxaphones and it almost made me cry i am thinking only people who care are the siblings anyhow i am excited to go home is my point.

wonderful

two nights in a row i must be doin somethin right. tonight was so much fun. me and alli went to a show it was jut great we went with a girl that is in one of alli's classes she was way cool and i met this kid named matt ho and he was hilarious hilarious i tell you. it was a pretty good show Love you Long Time played which was fun and a couple of hardcore bands which were errr different but fun i moshed a little bit which i haven't done for a while I got to see good old matt which was nice and i got his number so we are all going to get together and go to the galley (our cafeteria) together. afterwards we went to craigos this local pizza place and had bread sticks and just chilled it was a most excellent time me and matt ho sang some run dmc so great. i am hoping these girls will be our friends i liked them a lot this one girl named marissa was so funny she made me happy i am pretty tired i just went down in the lounge and my cousin was there and this girl named melody and i guess they took 7 CAFFEINE PILLS today and i just wnated to say serves you right that you don't feel well i mean bad ebough for monica who is about my size but melody probably weighs 110 pounds at the most she is tiny and she was complaining about heart flutters whatever the crap that is how could you be so ridiculous i just don't understand how crappily people treat their bodies ok there is my rant i am off

Ah

last night tiffany and alli and kerilynn went to "the work adn the glory" i told them that i refused to pay money to see such rubbish so i got the apartment to my self and let me tell you what i did took a heinously long shower, made popcorn, ate chocolate, painted my toenails, and watched seinfield at 11:30 i went to bed and let me tell you it was possibly the most pleasant evening i have had in quite a long time excluding the ones with whitters and david that is. so nice i really don't want to go to a show tonight but i think alliwould kill me if i didn't go so i guess i will just suck it up. I walked to zions bank this afternoon it was 18 degrees outside i am not excited to make that journey again on monday but alas i must maybe i will talk nickers into driving me down there that would be splendid i am hungry again i ate lunch just a little while ago but here i am hungry again mm so warm another nap is in order maybe i probably shouldn'y since i got 11 hours of sleep last night and i have already taken one nap today sometimes i just wihs i could sleep whenever i wanted to and still be able to sleep at night mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm oh yeah
so i checked charles' myspace today and suprise suprise my sister's roommate is off his top 8 i wonder what this means did gurly finally get the nerve to break it off? did charles find her doing some guy in his bed? did he finally break the news to her that he is actually in love with feliks? find out next time on As the Chair Turns

me and my siblings actually created a soap opera called as the chair turns one year on vacation all of our names were car names like portia and mercedes it was funny good times



SLEEEP that is what i want or a chicken like a rotissery chicken maybe i will go down in the lounge and watch the food network i need to tap that resource more often i love the food network ok enough of this drivel i am off

this is me being really cold in my apartment i am happier than i look i promise

Odd

i am feeling better today still a little bothered but meh. So this morning i woke up to go to math and i was in the living room napping while waiting to use the bathroom and jacob called . he said he wasn't going becasue he hadn't got much sleep llast night and since i wasn't ready yet i decided to just go back to sleep as well so i crawl into my bed and i lay there and think "just go to math it is not that big a of a deal just go" and then "no i freaking want to go to sleep i am tired and my throat hurts i just want to sleep" "just get up it will be over before you know it just go to math!!) after about five minutes jacob calls again and says "i will be there to pick you up in a second we are going to math" as weare walking up to the ricks building he tells me how he sat in his bed and just kept feeling like he should go to math so finally he got up and called me. So i was all weirded out thinking that something big would happen during class today because of our experience earlier that morning and oddly enough the onlly thing that happened was that jacob snapped his glasses in half hahahhahahhaha right after he did it he said to me " this wouldn't have happened if we didn't come to math" which is funny and true so i wa sthinking about all of this during child development and i wrote a stupid little poem about it here it is:

Math Class, Broken

i saw you twisted over there
Your Owner keeping hands,
and then dear glasses,
I recall, he did snap your bands

i wonder glasses thin and light
if you could ever find
within your heart to forgive
The Owner who's now blind

thats what happens when i get bored in child development bwahhahahahhahah anyhow it is the week end and i am excited farewell

i don't want to play freaking Uno

is it such a crime to want to be alone once in a while i swear am i supposed to be in some perpetually wonderful mood can't i just be to myself and think. Alli is pissed i am sure but i need some space and if i say i don't want to do something that means i don't want to do it grrr i just want to go home two more weeks of this and then i will be i am wondering if going away to college was a good idea sometimes i feel so unhappy here but i don't know if i want to stay home either i suppose i just have to sit down and seriously think about it sometimes i hate myself

the only solution is to sit in my bed, read blogs, eat chocolate chip pumpkin bread, and listen to yellow card thats right yellow card and i don't care what any of you think about that.

bAAAAAAAGACKKKKKKKKKK

holy crap sitting here in my apartment listening to amanda's friends rag on their roommates i am so vastly annoyed with these fools so badly"....the hardest part is yet to come..." ah death cab you are great. i have been slacking in the blog department yesterday all i could think about is writing but i got distracted bleh i have a bio test today not excited for that man people are freaking annoying. so i went to the democrats meeting it was pretty good except democrats are annoying especially in a mostly republican setting but i suppose i will go next week as well might as well get involved with something i have nothing better to do. I talked with charles for the first time in two months on msn last night not exactly a great idea but yeah. i am suprised it didn't bother me more than it has he kept talking about a bunch of girls who were hitting on him "with very sexual intentions" over thanksgiving i just wanted to scream at him he knew that it pissed me off when we were dating did he think that i would appreciate it now that we aren't. once he started that i told him i had to go and he laughed grr made me mad i am not sad anymore i am just angry i know this is not a good thing. i wish i could just forget about this. here is a picture for you all