i am just trying to figure things out

i am trying to make sense of the emotional break downs i have had in the past week i am trying to figure out why i am so sad

it is frustrating to come home after a party and sob because i am hungry and i can't find anything to eat or because i can't find my sweatpants

it is frustrating to be listening to music and just breaking down because some memory that hasn't manifested itself in over a year suddenly pops up

I don't want to be sad i don't want to cry i don't want to be tired at night i wish i could have energy enough to be entertaining to my friends again