Problematic

i have this issue it is weird and i have to be vague but here goes

i have a slight infatuation with a fellow blogger i have never spoken to him or met him or anything i just read his blogs.

but i am finding myself more and more attracted to him now here is where it gets tricky i am some what linked to him i could probably get a date with him by means of this connection but i am scared out of my gourd yes thats right my GOURD. but i keep thinking that going an ENTIRE year without a date (other than church date but that does NOT count) is kind of depressing so i should just do it but what if i do and then he finds out i read his blog and he thinks i am a stalker of some sort which i am totally not because i started reading his blog before i found out about this connection bleh or what if he thinks i am an idiot or i don't know what if i become more infatuated with him and he rejects me/i have to go to idaho. stupidness. maybe i will bring it up to my connection.


My parents are in michigan this weekend i miss them i am nervous bad things seem to happen when they are gone but so far it has been smooth sailing

i do believe i get to sleep in tomorrow