decent weekend, bad night tonight kind of sucked it is my own fault stupid myspace i don't know why i keep checking up on him. Actually I do know why it is because i want to see if he is still over me to see if i can catch one hint of feeling left for me. What makes this all so much worse is that i can't get him out of my head he is always there in the back of my mind and he is in salt lake having sex with my sister's roommate i probably haven't crossed his mind in weeks and it makes me ache. It kills me to think that in one short month he can pretend like six months of his time didn't happen i should be happy that he isn't upset that he doesn't have to suffer but why can't i freaking get over it! maybe if i didn't feel like he is the only person in the world who could possibly find me attractive, the only one who could love me like that. i wish i could find someone up here a rebound i know that is awful but that is what i want right now someone to make me hope again i hate that i am dreading going home because i know the likelyhood of me seeing him is high i hate that my holiday with my family is tainted that way. ok sorry i am being so stupid right now i just get in moods i was doing so well for a while there i just want to be happy and not think about him ever again.
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It's hard not to think of someone if you're trying not to...Just stop trying...It'll all work itself out..It always does.
~Dark_Soldier~
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