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so i debated wether to blog about this or not cause it is kind of intense but i need an outlet so this will do. Friday night me and alli came home from wandering about and such and amanda was home she was in quite the pissy mood so i avoided her but alli decided to try and give her a hug so alli went to hugher and amand shoved her and screamed at her "don't touch me" then she left so i go into alli's room and sit with her and she starts to cry and that was ok but then she started really crying like sobbing and hyperventilating and all this so i was pretty worried cause i didn't know what to do so i just sat with her and held her she continued crying and right as i thought she had calmed down she said in such a frusterated voice sometimes i just want to stab myself and cut myself so i was like ack don't know what to do etc. so i was like lets just sit and watch a movie go wash your face and we will just watch this movie and she was like no i am going to take a bath and all i could think about is all the razors that were in there so i told her she couldn't and i wouldn't let her so we watched the movie and everything was ok but i am at a loss ineed to do something but who knows what i can't just leave this what happens when i am not here ? what if everything gets worse. bleck any advice would be useful you know i am at my whits end when i ask a community of complete strangers to help.