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so i found out tonight that whitney can't come up tomorrow i am going to be honest i cried actually i cried a lot. It sometimes scares me how bad i miss her and it scares me that i depend on her so much but i realize why she is important to me and that makes it seem less weird if you care here is my old xanga account xanga starting when me and whit first started hanging out gosh i miss her.

I read all of the entries on my xanga and i was suprised to see how much my writing style has changed i wish i wrote as well as i did back then now. near the end chronicles the begining of me and ziv's relationship it is weird to think that has almost been a year, reading those entries sure took me back, even with all the crap that came with it i am so glad that i met ziv and i am glad that i could have a relationship with him i am glad that i could love him for a while and i wish we could be friends. i wrote a poem today that i think i will read at Poet's Corner but i am scared it isn't very good no one will get it, my writings are so personal though whitney is the only one who has ever read my stuff because i trust her not to laugh at it because she knows how much it means to me i don't know if i have that much faith in the student population here.