Lazy Lazy Lazy

i am a lazy child a very lazy child all i did was eat and sit and play with music all day long. This evening all of the siblings+significant others went out to dinner poor andrew and i the only ones alone except not because he has the elusive ms. jenny to maintain a relationship with. meh meh i am not going to think about the lack of an attractive male in my life i won't do it

ok maybe i will a little

Sometimes i worry about my future husband
what if he turns out to be gay 15 years down the line
what if he beats me
what if he has an affair
what if he doesn't love me after the first six months

silly i know but this is what i thought about during dinner

sometimes i feel like my worrying spins out of control that is when i can't sleep because my brain races until i want to scream
thankfully i experienced that more often last year than this

meh

this whole post is silly