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So exciting day today stood in line to take a test at the testing center for a hour and a half only to sit down to take the test and figuratively as well as literally choke. So i was kind of freaking out as it was because of the stupid massive line and then it was my first time in the new testing center so i was all anxious and crap so i sat down and i get this tickle in my throat so i start coughing and i was freaking out even more because all the people and i bet i was bugging them i felt sk bad they were all trying to take their tests and i couldn't stop coughing and i tried to supress it and i couldn't and the more i tried the more it tickled and i ended up in tears it tickled so much and hurt and i was so frustrated so i just filled in all the c's on the test and turned it in i ended up getting a 28% on it but it was only my child development test and he drops the lowest test score so i think everything will be ok but not a great experience. and then dakota came over and we attempted to study he played the guitar it was amazing i wish i had a tape recorder or something made me cry lots of crying today. Luckily he didn't see me he is an amazing boy. So we were studying and what not and he was acting all grumpy and i told him he could leave if he wanted to and all that and he was like no grumble grumble and he asked me a question from the text and i was like are you sure i wont be offended if you want to leave and he kinda yelled just answer the question dangit and i kinda started to cry again i knew he was kidding and everything i was just so tired and stressed and ready to go home so he said lets take a break so we did and we talked a bit he is a sweetie sometimes i think i could totally want to be with him i don't know days like today when he is so nice and around so much even the only reason for it is because he is avoiding that other girl i don't know he is cute but nothing will ever happen i know that for a fact here is the reason why: we were speaking about that girl that he is semi chasing after/running away from and when describing her he said she is awesome, different from the other girls up here, like you but different.

different i am sure in that she is attractive.

my dear cassidy is not feeling well i am actually pretty worried about her she thinks she has mono i am worried i want her to be ok i love that one i really do i don't know what to do to help her it is awful when she is sick cause she gets so sad when she can't go out and play mmk i am going to go stare at my ceiling for a few hours bleh i wish i could sleep ok off i go.