So i just finished The Host by Stephanie Meyer i liked it alright about as much as i liked eclipse i think. i am getting pretty sick of her obsession with hot and cold imagery you would think that she could figure out a different way to explain someone touching someone else.
I feel like i have wanted to blog a thousand things but now i can't recall.
I went the singles ward again this week I almost chickened out after sacrament and went home....in fact i got in my car and drove out of the parking lot, but i came to some sort of logically thinking, convinced myself that they were just people in there just like me and i went back, transferred my records and went to sunday school and relief society.
the one really big think i learned, or rather relearned, from sunday is that regardless of where you are or how many people you know the gospel is true and it brings you comfort. After church i felt better then i have in weeks, i know that has been part of my problem also that i haven't been exercising....it is amazing how much not exercising has affected my life i really have been quite miserable for the past few weeks and i am sure it is because i have been stupid about my body and about my spirituality.
I was thinking about next year today and i was worrying a little i just worry that cass and i are going to get stuck with stupid roommates again and we won't even have next door neighbors to take refuge with....I know I shouldn't worry it is far away and there is nothing that i can do about it. These are the times when i truly envy Daniel, last semester i asked him if he was worried about graduate school...moving on....having to find new friends etc and he told me he was worried but not really, he said he wasn't afraid, and that he didn't let it bother him because there was nothing to do about it. i wish i could be that apathetic about things i wish i could take it in such stride but it seems that every tweek to my stupid self absorbed universe causes me to flip out.
but then again i don't envy daniel he moves on with an almost callousness that i would not wish to have, i am grateful that i make attachments, deep and painful as they can be i wouldn't trade that much for all the non-feeling in the world.
grssh i wish i could sleep 5:30 will come far too soon
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Yes. We had some crappy roomates but you have to admit that semester we laughed so much and had the funnest time in our room!
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