huh

i hung out with whit and charles last night we went to a bowling alley and saw about twenty people from our high school it was not a pleasant experience. It wouldn't have been bad but it was lal the people i don't particularly like it was ok they ignored me i ignored them all except a boy named matt. he has always been nice to me even though i wasn't exactly high on the the "social ladder" that is high school fro that i appreciate him he is a good kid.

I am not going to lie i was a shameless flirt last night i flirted with charles and i flirted with his friend i think i have come to the conclusion that the reason i keep hanging out with him is that i like the attention. After four months it is nice to have someone flirt with me without the presence of attractive roommates it is nice to catch someone looking at me, it is nice to know someone thinks that i am pretty.

marriage

my aunt got married today it was lovely. i will post pictures when i get them on my computer it was nice to see everyone i love that side of the family they are just great. my dear parents are going out of town again to visit my grandma i guess she isn't doing to well which makes me sad. my dearest david left for taiwan yesterday the funny part is he doesn't get there until like 9:30 tonight crazy. whitney is doing pretty well though we went to a movie last night and on saturday we will be visiting the zoo which will be fun. For the first time since i came home i missed idaho today. I do i miss the cold and cassidy and alli and dakota and jacob. I miss it but i am glad i still have another week. new years kind of weird hopefully it will be fun ok i am out expect more pictures soon.

woot

yeah the internet works again which means that i can put pics of christmas on here which is exciting so christmas is pretty much a big deal in my home and we have certain traditions that are a bit odd that we keep. so here they are i will start with

CHRISTMAS EVE:

we always have breakfast for dinner pancakes specifically

we watch a muppet christmas carol
we walk down to the park by my home and jump off of the sign (weird i know)


do you like how andrew doesn't have pants on ?
a good time was had by all

CHRISTMAS DAY:
we woke up at 7 we always do unwrap presents dad doles them out then we went to church at 11 it was very nice then we just chilled played games chatted with the fam and all that it was so much fun.

i had a sleep over with some girls that i am pretty close with it was much fun
all i have to say is tyra banks is a retard

today sucks

i am not going to lie today sucks my internet refuses to work so i can't write my freaking amazing blog with pictures about the last three days charles isn't speaking to me i hate everything i hate that i even toy with the idea of kissing him i need to find somone new.

teehee

I hung out with Charles last night. and it wasn't awkward in fact we had a really good conversation we sat in my drive way and talked for about 3 hours. we talked about our relationship what he did to me why he did it how i felt how he has felt all that sort of stuff. and music and politics and how he feels about israel and what he wants to do with life and what i want to do with life people we are interested in just everything it was great i miss his friendship if there is one thing about charles it is that he is a good conversationalist. James and mom were not to happy about this but i don't think they understand about closure i needed that so badly i needed to talk things out with him i needed to see him and realize that i don't love him anymore and i needed him to tell me that he doesn't love me but still cares. just great closure that is all.

And now presenting MY DAY O FUNNNESS

woke up at 11:30 ate pizza Tom the spirit of our family coerced me into tying ribbons on little jars of jam at 12 me james and andrew went downtown to sam weller's this awesome used book store in salt lake it was pimp i got a book of post cards from india or something. it is heinously warm outside so walking was most pleasant.
And the best part of it all was when the Hobo laughed at andrew.

in other news i saw The Chronicles of Narnia last night it was amazing please check out that link it is hilarious. I HAVE HAD A WONDERFUL DAY
and i am pretty excited about that
Charles and dearest hannah came over just now and he gave me a bunch of music like Jack's Mannequin and some skits from The Lonely Island Boys which were very humorous.
oh yes i feel fantastic

and christmas is in two days
deedle dee deedle doo



this is the fam i realize it is blurry but there ya go
fromleft to right
joe, Elizabeth, Andrew in the red sweater, me (Catherine) in black, Diana in red, James in blue and pops and mom and our beautiful christmas tree WOOHOOO
this is a shout out to james because he said catherine will you give me a shout out in your blog and i said yes so ther ya go it is time to go grocery shopping.

i am running out of titles for posts

i have used all of them up i keep looking around forrandomones but they are dumb there ya go. so i am still sick and it is getting worse again. my head has been killing me for awhile now my face hurts stupid sinuses i have been going to bed really early though so that is good but it is frustrating cause i want to play and be exciting and not be a stupid stick-in-the-mud-wet-blanket-no-fun-poopy-face. yeah you heard me. oprah is stupid she makes me mad/want to kick her. Ricky came over today that was fun he is nice and i can tell he tries not to swear around me which i appreciate. all these stupid boys on myspace are talking to me i want them to go away when did i become interesting to people. i am tired. i don't want to hang out tonight i have to go to the doctor i hate the doctor. BLEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ok nap time now.
ps my brother thinks ricky is creepy my brother is a nerd just kidding jamesie i hope you get your paper done and i will go to the doctor

RACKO!

Ah home is lovely i tell you lovely. last night i hung out with whit an david as well as one peter from my high school who is quite good friends with charles and i am pretty sure he was hanging out with charles before he came to whit's and then picked charles up again when he left awkward. meh. today has been nice i love my family for sure. they are wondeful and i am so glad i am here they are all so supportive and great. tonight i got to meet grey diana's friend which was nice he is a good kid i alsomeet a boy named ricky that is diana's friend he is cute and nice and i hope i see him again. Aunt Susie came to dinner she is getting married on the 30th i am happy for her but i will miss her on christmas and i won't like sharing her with her new children but there ya go. Church was good i went with dear kayla to primary it was fun there is a little boy named tanner who always gives me hugs i love him he is so cute. I am sitting here watching my brother and his girlfriend they are so cute i hope they get married i can see how happy she makes him. alrighty i should probably sleep

Home

i am home i got here about 2:30 talked with momand dia for a bit then went to david's and watched him clean cried a little made david feel uncomfortable then i went home and chatted with the little brother then i went with mom to take little brother to meet cousins for boys night out after hat i came home and just chilled, ate dinner with just the parents and i amcurrently waiting for the lovely whitters to pick me up i can't wait to see her ahh it is so fling flanging wonderful to be home!!!
oh yeah i got my phone from dakota this morning he came out of his room in his pj's he looked so cute i am not going to lie.

Already

i am all packed except my computer and i have been officially checked out I am very excited to leave but i will sincerly miss a few people who will not be coming back next semester. jacob came and said good bye at about 11 we spent most of the day together it was nice i almost started to cry when he left even though i will see him in a month i will miss him. i wish i could better express to him how much he means to me i suppose i will have to write a truly excellent note to go along with his christmas present. Tonight i have been listening to cat stevens i really enjoy it probably my favorite is Sad Lisa good stuff. I am wondering about blog edicate I want to post links to blogs i frequently read but i am not sure if this is ok. do i need to ask? meehhh 9 in the mornig is so far away right now oddly enough grr i wish we couldhave left tonight oh well. i am going to breakfast tomorrow at like 7 it should be great i will most definitely be sleeping in the car. Dakota has my phone i don't know what to do his phone is brokenso i can't call him i am pretty sure the parents will destroy my soul if i go home with out it bleg I am thinking of including a cd in with jacob's present just a mix hmmm. i have to get cass' home address before i leave i can't forget. she is going to be in salt lake for three hours on saturday i wish i lived closer to the airport then i would go see her. ahh home wonderful. i am hungry but alas no money mmk maybe i will attempt to sleep now.

but wait holy freaking crap i found the coolest website ever check it out
cool music site

Inept

pretty sure i am inept when it comes to computers/the internet or what have you so when i figured out how to make links yesterday i was pretty excited (my lovely sis taught me how) so in honor of this occasion as well as in celebration of me finishing my last test (yiiipeeeeeeeeeeee) i give you The Sibling Blog I am Smart

heres hoping it works i am off to clean.

huh

So exciting day today stood in line to take a test at the testing center for a hour and a half only to sit down to take the test and figuratively as well as literally choke. So i was kind of freaking out as it was because of the stupid massive line and then it was my first time in the new testing center so i was all anxious and crap so i sat down and i get this tickle in my throat so i start coughing and i was freaking out even more because all the people and i bet i was bugging them i felt sk bad they were all trying to take their tests and i couldn't stop coughing and i tried to supress it and i couldn't and the more i tried the more it tickled and i ended up in tears it tickled so much and hurt and i was so frustrated so i just filled in all the c's on the test and turned it in i ended up getting a 28% on it but it was only my child development test and he drops the lowest test score so i think everything will be ok but not a great experience. and then dakota came over and we attempted to study he played the guitar it was amazing i wish i had a tape recorder or something made me cry lots of crying today. Luckily he didn't see me he is an amazing boy. So we were studying and what not and he was acting all grumpy and i told him he could leave if he wanted to and all that and he was like no grumble grumble and he asked me a question from the text and i was like are you sure i wont be offended if you want to leave and he kinda yelled just answer the question dangit and i kinda started to cry again i knew he was kidding and everything i was just so tired and stressed and ready to go home so he said lets take a break so we did and we talked a bit he is a sweetie sometimes i think i could totally want to be with him i don't know days like today when he is so nice and around so much even the only reason for it is because he is avoiding that other girl i don't know he is cute but nothing will ever happen i know that for a fact here is the reason why: we were speaking about that girl that he is semi chasing after/running away from and when describing her he said she is awesome, different from the other girls up here, like you but different.

different i am sure in that she is attractive.

my dear cassidy is not feeling well i am actually pretty worried about her she thinks she has mono i am worried i want her to be ok i love that one i really do i don't know what to do to help her it is awful when she is sick cause she gets so sad when she can't go out and play mmk i am going to go stare at my ceiling for a few hours bleh i wish i could sleep ok off i go.

Dakota

I think Dakota is possibly the most interesting person I have met up here and probably the one who i most respect. This evening he came over to study for biology for the first time Dakota talked to me about a girl. dakota is confusing, he wants action or does he? I don't know he makes it seem that he wouldn't mind a relationship with this girl despite the situation. Odd boy anyhow Whats up with the guys talking to me about girls as of late? i just don't know. this post is pointless everything i have said for the past few days has been complaining i do realize that. i probably won't post half as much when i get home because the parents turn the internet off at 11:30 but who knows i leave friday i can't wait to take my bio test it will be a fierce one Professor Eastman called me at home today it was weird i like her she is nice i wish i could be her friend instead of her student but i am not sure if that is allowed. i have read a lot of blogs and to tell you the truth none of them are like mine they are interesting and funny and not stupid and whiny it makes me want to change but at the same time i don't because this is my outlet when i am pissed or sad or happy this is where i come it is like my substitute whitney and charles it makes me want to cry i wish i had a closer a friend up here so i didn't have to live my life through the friggin internet

I am excited to go home to people who actually know me. On the 27th i will be seeing charles for the first time in months i will be expecting good mojo thrown my way by the the lovely people of blogger.com

That made me think about dear david i am going to miss him a lot even though we aren't as close anymore i still feel i don't know attached to him? i am not sure what it is but i care about that boy an awful lot i worry about him going to a foreign coutry not know ing the language all that jazz he is a big boy i am sure he will be all right i just can't help but worry what if he gets mugged or something and he can't clal home what if he gets sick and no one is there to take care of him, it makes me think of when he got his wisdom teeth out he was so funny that day so sleepy and the hook "you can't get past the hook" i will miss him much and i ache for my dear whitney and what she is up against in the next few months i wish i could be there with her " a growing experience" i guess it will be that was my mantra the first weeks of college and one of the last things my mom said to me before she left grr stupid blog i haven't cried in what seems like ages at least i will sleep well tonight.

I can't wait to see my family again. my siblings are truly the greatest people on earth, spend ten minutes with us and i can guarentee that they will have you laughing you couldn't find people nicer, smarter and as kind as in my family i am so glad that we are close and that i can talk to them about crap they sometimes wouldn't care to hear and that i can count on them for support and love even in the middle of finals week ahh i miss my home so badly grr three more days and i am there.
feels good to unload and i am sufficiently ready for bed. so good night

PS i wish i had a picture of my whole family but alas i don't i suppose i will fix that when i go home
oh yes and just so everyone knows what i was really going to write about tonight was how i want to live in maine and how i think jews are hot, silly dakota messed everything up!

No Hidden Fees

I am feeling much better today to bad half he apartment hates me right now. So i get up at around 11:30 and we decide to go to lunch as roommates so me alli tiffany and karilynn are sitting in the living room and alli was like are you waiting for cassidy? and i was like yeah is that a problem? and she like freaked out at me and was like why are you being so defensive and i said i didn't mean to be defensive and she was like why do you hat eme and why are you mad at me and all this crap and i am like i am not mad at you so i asked her where my necklace was cause she always takes it and doesn't return it and she told me so i went to go put ot on and when i got back out into the living room they were all gone. i assume they went to lunch i waited for cass to finish getting ready and we went to lunch then ran some errands when i got back they were all in their rooms and wouldn't talk to me i don't know if i care well i do but its just so stupid and petty it makes me angry that alli assumes she knows what i am feeling i wasn't mad at her until they all ditched me and cass whatever i don't care.


ok so alli just walked in she is isttingon the other couch STARING at me if you want to say something say it KGBKASJGDHSKUHG

sleeps not coming easy to me now

i have been listening to something corporate a lot lately and quite frankly i have enjoyed it. still trying to get rid of this cold but i am better tonight then i have been if it weren't for this persistent cough and a couple of roommates i would be asleep ah well so it goes alright i am off

Awake

i am awake it is 6:30 why am i awake when i don't have class till 8 and i went to bed around two. stupid coldgrr iam so upset i just want to sleep but i can't everytime i lay down i cough everytime i sit up i cough everytime i breathe i cough anyone have any suggestions????

Hmmm

So i was thinking about a comment that was made on the previous post by phil (check out his blog it is really good) I suppose that tomy family and my friends would say that i am outgoing but in high school i think that i definitely was known for being on the quieter side i think that i have outgrown it somewhat being in college and all but i still can't talk to boys and i don't generally speak in class because professors scare me but meh.

So i was thinking about writing today and i realized that i was censoring myself because of the people i know who read this but i decided i am going to continue writing in this like it is a secret blog and hopefully the people i love who read this won't think too less of me

ok this is mean i am warning you

so i was sitting there playing snood on my computer i love snood i really do so tiffany was there watching me and she was like can i play? so I have my computer i am in the middle of a game what do i say? i can't say no that is ridiculous but i did not want to say yes i wanted to play snood dangit selfish i know it just bothers me when i am in the middle of doing something and she asks for my computer isn't it obvious that i am using it ? GRR even if it is doing something insignificant like checking blogs still there are three other computers in this apartment WITH NO ONE ON THEM logic is great. ok so that is my rant for now

Matt Ho is here i think he hates me he just seems annoyed like i am some crappy music underling and alli is some all-knowing music goddess just because she listens to incubus and never listens to any pop who gives a friggin crap if i have kelly clarkson on my ipod deal with it maybe i do like dashboard ya wanna go ? grr stupid musical elitists i should just go to bed it is proabbaly just cause i feel like crap and ryan didn't come and that is dissappointing and i am pretty sure he wants alli to so i should probably not get my hopes up grrr maybe i should just climb into a box and never leave so as to prevent any male from having to experience me having a crush on them i might as well just for go talking to boys and introduce them to alli so she can seduce them with her crazy eye make up and stupid holy jeans sorry i am done




jacob and his friend miles came over tonight i plucked their eyebrows in other news jacob kissed his first girl a couple of weeks ago she is going to beauty school and currently FAILING IT yes failing beauty school kudos to you jacob miles and me had "girl talk" he wants to hold this girls hand blah blah blah tiffany gave him awful advice but his eyebrows look good.

blegh

I am not going to lie last night was awesome but i feel worse today then i did yesterday i probably shouldn't have gone to the show buti didn't want to dissappoint alli further it was so much fun love you long time released their CD so there were a ton of people there kara took us again along with Matt Ho and a new boy named ryan. ryan is cute and nice and funny he lives in my home town How convenient we will be hanging out over christmas break i am hoping. i saw a young man that i have seen before at shows a very attractive young man i think i have actually blogged about him before i should have talked to himlast night i felt like i looked pretty but i wasn't too confident because my voice sounds like a man it was an awesome show nontheless the first band sucked but then belafaunte played and they were good. afterwards we went to craigos and sat and talked adamshowed up oddly enough he is always weird when we hang out in groups. we didn't have a ride over to craigos after the show it is about a mile away and it was about 3 degrees last night so alli coerced a stranger to take us over there his name was mark he came in with us and sat and ate pizza he was a very nice guy. i am exhausted i couldn't get to sleep til about two and i woke up at six because my darncold matt ho and ryan said they would come and visit us tonight i am excited for that matt is hilarious and i found out extremely ticklish. I have been drinking apple cider like it is going ou of style in an attempt to assuage my cold it has 100% vitamin c and the warmth feels good on my throat thank you mommy

i found out my dear friend david is leaving out of the country sooner than i had anticipated it makes me sad i will miss that crazy asian quite a bit he is a good one.

The Sickness

so it it official i have a cold a bad one, head feels like its going to explode cough so hard my body shakes nose plugged back/shoulders/neck sore from coughing voice one octave lower etc. i am not to happy about this cold five days before my first final but that is a lie i took my first final today i got an 86% on it i am quite content with this score all things considering. man i feel like crap i wish i culd sleep i tried to at about quarter to 11 and had no luck so i took a bath and tried again and no luck so here i am feeling like crap exhausted but unable to sleep i suppose i could do something productive like study but what fin would that be besides i think my head would explode. There sure are a lot of nice looking men on this campus maybe i am going crazy i saw sam today as i headed to the library it threw me off and i think he was a little weirded out too. it is odd because up until this point i haven't really been attracted to anyone here except jacob and that was fleeting well i guess there is cafeteria boy too but yeah all the sudden attractive men are popping up out of nowhere ok i am going to go take some freaking nyquil i sure hope it works

ps we passed clean checks thank heavens

Clean

Some cruel person here invented "white glove clean checks" i will find this person and murder them. i have been cleaning since nine just my room and i am not finished yet tomorrow i will have to wash the walls vaccum thoroughly make sure ther e is not a speck of dust anywhere including behind the bed underneath drawers etc. not to mention the stuff i have to do in the general apartment area of our house GRRRR i am tired i want to sleep but i have to put all the clothes back into my drawers curse this place.

on the bright side i did decently on my health test and tomorrow is friday that means the next day is saturday and that means i get to go hear some bands play YIPPEEEE i am happy. mmk i am off to clean some more.

Lights Out

So last night at about quarter to one the power shut off which normally isn't a problem but it the real feel at the time was -25 degrees thats cold i promise. so alli was freaking out and the RA's came around to do bed checks and of course amanda isn't home so i tell the RA that she is aat kristen's which is just across the courtyard from us (i actually did think she was there i promise) about 5 minutes later she calls my phone and is like i am not in the dorm and i told her what i told the RA and she said apperntly they are at kristen's right now i honestly wanted to just laugh because she is screwed i am sure she will get on probation iam positive of it i feel bad but then again that is what you get for breaking the rules right? so i was kkind of worried that we would be cold if the power stayed off all night so i had everyone sleep in the living room the lights came on at about 2 so we weren't too cold which was good so that is my excitement i am sure i will post again this evening