i have these moments of insecurity
all i can think about is ziv and how he is the only one out there for me. and he has moved on

in a month and 5 days it will have been exactly a year since he kissed me should this really take so long to get over what the crap is wrong with me

i keep telling myself your doing great your doing fine when was the last time you even cried over it? i can't remember christmas break maybe
but i am not doing alright if i was i would have been over and done with this within a month just like him arg suck it up, move on
maybe it would help if guys would show any interest in me
maybe diana is right the only solution is cut my hair and dye it blonde not a path i would enjoy pursuing

stupid this is all stupid
i don't need that i am fine on my own