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so i guess my grandma is dying, well she has been for a long time but she is really not going to make it this time. I don't know how i feel no i do i am sad i am sad too sad i think i should be happy for her she hasn't been with her husband for so long i don't know i just wish i would have called her last weekend when i had the chance. i hate death i do but i know it is a good thing i just don't want to think about it i wish i could be happier for her (i want to go home)