Late Night

weird how i feel most prompted to write at 4 in the morning.

Something odd has happened to me in the past few weeks, all of a sudden I am noticing boys, finding them attractive etc. Not only that but i have aquired some desire to actually be of some influence and use on this campus. In some repspect i feel like i am in junior high again but a million times better, realizing that i am growing up and that i am ok with that, feeling like my plan of waiting until i am 27 to get married isn't such a good one. i can hear my siblings gasp from here in no way am i planning on marriage right now, but i have realized that it is something that i would rather experience sooner than later.

Much of this i believe is finally coming to terms with the ziv situation I am letting go, i refuse to be afraid that no one could ever love me again. I refuse to dwell on my mistakes. Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life.


Ben Lee--Whatever It is

Whatever It Is
are you changing?
do you know it?
do you feel it?
do you know?
but youre waiting
while youre waiting
why are you waiting?
just do it - whatever it is

there are secrets
there are places
there are places you can go to
they might tell you
yeah theyll tell you that you shouldnt
but do it - whatever it is
go do it - whatever it is
just do it - whatever it is

and youre dancing
and youre looking kinda crazy
and your arms are making little circles
there are reasons
there are reasons you can find out
so do it - whatever it is
just do it - whatever it is
go do it - whatever it is
whatever it is

its so quiet
and youre dreaming
i turn to you and say
"awake is the new sleep"
so wake up
and do it - whatever it is
just do it - whatever it is

cos awake is the new sleep
awake is the new sleep
so wake up
wake up
and do it - whatever it is
just do it - whatever it is
go do it - whatever it is
just do it - whatever it is
whatever it is