The End

my last day in rexburg i am not sure how i feel. Jacob left at around 9:30 i am proud of myself i didn't cry in front of him. i was asleep on the couch when he came to say good bye he pulled me up into a hug i could feel his heart beating, the feeling of his cheek against mine will stay with me. as we held each other he told me he would write to me and how he would visit when he was in salt lake before going on his mission. he told me to e mail him told me to call him and told me it would all be ok. as he was going out the door he stopped and said that those other girls mean nothing he said "Catherine you are my good friend". and he left.

I cried less than i thought i would, i do feel like everything will be good once i am home and everything.

So i said good bye to griff just now too, matt, megan, griff, alli, kara, and taylor were all going for the last time. They kept asking me to go with them i really didn't want to but they kept asking me why and i couldn't tell them why i didn't want to go. I guess it is just that i hate strung out goodbyes i didn't want it to turn into what happened with jacob i was expecting him to say good bye last night, then at breakfast and finally minutes before he left. I can't deal with that it is to much for my emotions especially when i don't feel well and i am tired and when i am saying good bye to so many others it is just to hard. i hope they aren't mad about that i just couldn't do it i would have cried in front of all of them, why do i feel like i have to justify this.