odd day

today has been weird I was really angry and annoyed with everyone again but then all the sudden it went away. So that was good i was in a pretty dang good mood, I saw the lovely Matt and he addressed me by name today that was exciting (wow i am a nerd) i also got a ton accomplished today so that felt good as well i did some social problems reading and that depressed the crap out of me, we are talking about war and he had a us read this article about The Rape of Nanking that isn't the same article but you get the general idea of it. it all made me sick and worried. i just worry about david going into the military and getting all walled up and robotic again it makes me sad i don't want him to kill people i just want him to be sweet little david yelling at me to be a better nerdary captain. it kills me to think about him going off and doing war like things i just worry so much i want him to be safe and emotionally and physically healthy and i don't trust west point i honestly don't. ARG i hate the world and all its crappiness.