Wednesday, October 19, 2005

12:22

Ah it is so early but i am exhausted i haven't had a nap today so i am actaully tired tonight.Today was pretty good missed my first and only class suprise suprise next semester i am making sure i don't have an 8:00 class bleck so i slept until 10 got up showered and started my 8 page 15 problem math test. So i wrote that til around noon then i went to lunch came back and worked on my test until about 3:30 then i got a visit from one of my neighbors back hoome who gave me a lamp and a bag full of food from my mother she is a good one. Finished the test around 4:15 well i didn't actually finish it i did the problems i could i am expecting a d on it which will be lovely. went tp dinner at five thirty saw cafeteria boy he was wearing a suit it was so very attractive. after dinner i attempted to figure out how to put a picture on here unsuccesfully and then Nick,Cassidy's boy toy, cameover and i left with them to watch a movie we watched secret window it was ok i just about froze but it was good fun. So jordan is one of Nick's roommates and he has a 20 gig Ipod and he only had 300 songs on it!!! it was depressing so i brought my computer over and gave him all 900 songs that are on there it was cool. i just ate a giant cookie it was positively delecious. I am nervous for my second meeting wih my counselor iam going to have to tell him he is right and it just breaks my heart that he was i haven't been sleeping well so i am afraid he will be angry with me oh well. I wish amandawould come home she is over at our neighbors watchung a movie bleh. ok well i am going to sleep i guess until tomorrow.

2 comments:

Jannine said...

Why would your counsellor be angry with you? Dont feel bad about admitting that he is right. Think about it like...this is a step towards feeling better about yourself and becoming happy. You don't deserve to feel as horrible as you do. Take each session at a time and try hard not to beat yourself up.
*Big Hugs* and good luck tomorrow
J

P.S "Worrying is like sitting in a Rocking Chair, its something to do, but it gets you no where"

Dear Lovey Heart said...

Thanks you are right ahh worrying is one of my big problems i have to work on..