Me and jacob had an interesting conversation this morning. We started to talk about how important looks were for a guy it was weird i have never seen him be so superficial i understand that attraction is important and that i an integral part of any relationship but here is what he said and what bugged me he said when girls look for a husband they look for a sense of humour and financial stability which is fine yeah i agree with that to a certain extent but he compared it with basing attraction solely on looks by saying this he communicated to me that the way a girl looks takes precedence over spirituality, intelligence etc when looking for a partner. Seems a bit of a double standard to me. I think it is easier for people like him and people like alli and amanda to base attractions solely on looks becasue they are beautiful people if all i saw were looks i would never get a boyfriend or a husband for that matter. beauty is so fleeting i find it to be lower on my list of priorities in findng a mate yes it is important to be attracted to the person but jacob dosen't seem to understand the concept of falling in love wih someone's personality, i am sure he was jut trying to make me understand that looks are important to guys but if that is the case i fear i will be single for a long while. Not that i am not pretty i feel like i am decent looking not hideous but there are so many that exceed me in their prettyness. meh oh well i think he is mad at me but honestly i don't care anymore h is not the person i thought he was at the beggining by any means.
last night was interesting i went and watched amanda play dodgeball and then and watched volleyball by myself for a while it was actually pretty nice. when igot home i took a bath and then messed around onmy computer till everyone got home. so that boy i mentioned earlier the one i was scared to contact.. yeah so i emailed him on wednesday night and yesterday he emailed me back then i emailed him and then he emailed me we are getting along well i am finding he is pretty similar to myself which is always nice. last night i called my sister and we talked about charles and her roommate she said her roommate was sick of him and that she was going to dump him but first she was going to milk him for all he is worth by means of free dinners movies etc. i thought that would make me happy but honestly it makes me sad i feel bad for him he gets attached so easily i don't want him hurting anymore than he has too. it also makes me happy that i haven't had the chacne to jump into a relationship up here this is easier being alone and happy is better than being with someone and getting hurt. no one is awake yet ilove it it is nice to be alone ok i am off to the races
One thing taht i am massivelly sick of is people stereotyping people ho don't go out freaking everynight as losers you know what if they don't want to freaking go out they won't it doesn't mean they are socially retarded or are losers MAYBE THEY DON'T LIKE PEOPLE
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Wow, you sound really angry today. Whats getting to you...the debate with Jacob? The fact that someone (other than you) is hurting Charles?
The whole attraction thing is a fact of life. I think as you get older or at least the more mature when it comes to relationships it means less and less to you, but its always going to be a factor. So its a major pulling factor for Jacob...sounds like he is going to learn the hard way that looks arent everything.
About Charles, I would ask your sister to stop talking to you about it. I can't imagine how horrible it must be to hear what is or isnt going on his life. And you seem to do much better when you block it out and get on with things.
Anyway...I hope you are feeling better and out of your funk soon! Think of me...Zack is going to his fathers for the night and I am spending the night at home with my Mum...not because there isnt anything better to do but because I love her and want to be there for her when she needs me!
*Big Hugs*
J
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