Jubilee Green

So I just got back from meeting with my counselor my assignment for this week was to write a list of things that i value the most and want to become here it is:

Family
Education
Relationship with God
To love and be loved
Have children
Feel worthy
be happy with myself
learn from my mistakes

He asked me how i could accomplish these things and i gave typical answers---pray more take care of myself better etc. and he said but you are missing a step first you have to decide. Make a decision are these things really what you want and are you going to work for them. he then told me this would be our last session so that made me feel good. My last assignment is to make very specific goals so as to achieve the things on my list. I feel good better than i have in a while i feel like i have control now. I know that i am still going to have a rough time with the whole charles thing and that it can't just disappear but now i feel like i can deal with it. Only i can make myself happy. ahh the sun is breaking through the clouds, literally, hahahahhahah here is the view out my window at the moment:



So last night i made an executive decision and deleted the web site i had to get past the filter so i could get onto myspace it was just making me more depressed soi deleted it ah ok i will post more later i am off to lunch