Purpose

I started this blog with specific thing in mind last thursday i went to see a counselor at the health center because it is free and one of my roommates had been cutting herself and i didn't know what to do also i haven't been sleeping well and have been more socially inept then usual so yeah went to the counselor and he told me that i have depression. He also told me that if i didn't make improvements in the next few weeks i would need to start taking medication. That scared the crap out of me so i decided that i want to improve myself so i now have weekly sessions with him and my next one is on thursday but i am newrvous. i don't know i don't really feel like i am depressed yeah i don't really connect with people well and yeah i have crazy bad self esteembut isn't that typical of most girls? aside from the people thing anyway. And it is not like i can't talk to people at all like i love my roommates and i have a few guy friends who i can really talk with but i don't talk to people in my classes i always have my ipod in it is so much easier that way. Anyhow i got off topic so the purpose of this blog is to document my improvement as well as to contain my thoughts and feelings about this whole depression thing ok i am out time for bed