Today

So i thought i would catalog a typical thursday for myself. Woke up at 7:35 got ready in 10 min. yes that is right 10 minutes went to health. Listened to crazy teacher rant about stupid things. came home talked with my roomies some and then fell asleep until 11:30 i have got to stop doing that. chilled until about noon when amanda came home and we went to lunch at lunch i saw this kid i met a t the cannery he sat by me and we chatted it was nice he is a cool kid really nice and cute. Isound like i am in freaking junior high. Anyhow came home figured out we ran out of toilet paper so me and amanda and cassidy went to walmart wih Andrew and Guitar Chris. that was grand. When we got back we had to clean becasue we have clean checks every thursday(sad isn't it?) After that i went to amanda's soccer game they won which was good but she was way grumpy afterwards. After the soccer game i went to dinner and sat with jacob and Marcus which was ok jacob is just weird sometimes. So there is this guy that i see every day during dinner and i havea bit of a crush on him pretty much i call him cafeteria boy becasue i am to scared to go talk to him. ANYHOW so as were walking back to the dorm adam adamson started walking with us so he came over and i ended upspending the rest of the night with him we listened to music talked about music and then we went on a walk and talked about all sorts of things it was really cool, i am excited to be his friend he understands me a lot better than most peopledo which is weird because i don't really know him that well. It is kind of scary. So around 11 wemove to the lounge and jacob shows up and starts talking to us and adam asked jacob how we met so that whole story cameout about how socially inept i am. It is weird cause jacob often times does this half cuddle thing where he will have his arm around me and all that jazz and before even the thought of it would have exhilirated me but now it is like a brotherly thing ya know it is a comfort more than a romantic sort of feeling weird indeed i likebeing hisfriend so much better than having a crush on him he is too confusing for words. So i camme back at 12 and amanda returned shortly there after telling me she had just told this guy she likes that she doesn't want a relationshop with him it was hard for her because everyone could see he was using her but she couldn't so she just trusted us and told him to buzz off i am so proud of her. So i did somedamage control and i think she feels a bit better. As forme i am doing ok iamkeeping busy but when i find a moment i tend to revert back to thinking about him all my little crushes are helping a little hey keep me distracted but if i am not doing somethng chances are i will start thinking about stuff i just hate the idea that he is with that girl i just want himback i want him to love me again.