To Jannine

This blog is dedicated to jannine cause pretty sure she is the only one who reads this thing anyways hahahhaha. Jacob is my friend who i met like the second night i was here. I used to have a big crush on him which is odd because he is not the sort of guy i go for. My theories about this weird crush i had on him or these. 1. he was (and still is) the only boy here who would pay attention to me over all of my roommates. My other roommates always catch guys' attention and i just kinda of chill in the background of all their conversations but Jacob was different he started talking to me and continued to do so when he calls even though he is friends with everyone he calls for me. So i think i started liking him because of all the attention i was getting it was nice ya know? And he gave me a record and made a book mark for me and gave me one of his sweaters. So i thought he liked me for a while and then i realized that he is just a player. He has like a million girls that are his friends that he flirts with all equally. The thing about jacob though is that i could never be really close friends with him because he just doesn't care. For instance i told him about what happened with charles and he just shrugged it off like it didn't matter didn't comfort me didn't tell me things would be ok all he said is "that guy is a loser" then walked inside. i just don't feel like he cares meh oh well. So that is jacob nice but nothing romantical going on there.

Today was suprisingly good in a weird way extremely emotional but very good. i found out that i have some extraordinary guy friends up here i can't explain it in a way that any would understand but Chris and Scott gained all my respect this evening by displaying the love that they have for me and my roommates I feel like i have someone i can go to if i need them i feel protected and strengthened These boys are amazing well have good night everyone